Saturday, June 30, 2007
Den is a coward.She runs away from the heat instead of facing it bravely.
She curls up in a tight-ball when problems arise.
She is indifferent and complacent.
She is self-centred.
She does not give a FCUK about others.
All she cares about is herself.
Everyone must hate HER.
Its a MUST. =))
To add on,She is confused.
Her best friend told her she's stupid.
I believed "BODOH" was the right word.
Stupid because I believed she may still be trying to hold on to whats already been over.
Stupid because she have had many chances to start again.
But she threw all that away.
And now,she have two more chances to make things right.
To start a new.
And she's still stupid.
For I pray,she is on the edge of making the same mistakes over and over again........
You still mean the world to me.
EMO-ing.
DAMN HAZ.
Its all his fault X((.
| 7:07 AM |
Thursday, June 28, 2007
If one read read through my past posts,one would noticed that "number 15 guy/jester" was completely as well as suddenly erased from the face of this blog.No,he is most certainly not forgotten =)) perhaps I was just pissed off with him?who knows?After all,he dont really crap and I got bored?Haha.Okeyokey,I'll stop making excuses here.SOOOO,why in the blue hell do I want to re-blog about him?Beats me,I dont know the reason myself but yeah,Im going to blog about him,Im blogging about him and I've blogged about him.Haha.CRAP.
We chatted the other night like hell,and I enojoyed it.One thing though, my sms this month is going to bust yet again but I dont regret it. Our conversation went like this.NOTE:It's not word for word.
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15:Im cute.
DeN:Your not cute.Well,fine only in certain days but not everytime.
15:Okey,Im not always cute,but Im always adorable.
DeN:your thick-skin!
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DeN:Have you eaten?
15:no,I think Im not going to eat.
DeN: why?
15:Im too busy being adorable.
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DeN:Are you sick?
15:A little,I think Im coming down with ADORABLEUZENA
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HAHA.OKEY.Im not sure if people reading this will find it funny but it was hilarious to me.I mean,how thick-skin can the guy be!?SERIOUSLY. =DD
Elf was chatting with me online.Without so much so of "how are you?" she poured her heart out.I was thinking "WOAH GIRL!Whats with the downpour?"1st we dont really know each other.2nd I have no idea who the fuck was that jerk of a guy who dumped you.3rd I most certainly have no clue of what to reply when you said you cried hugging the bear he gave you everytime you think about him.
Dont get me wrong,I dont mind being the shoulder that you cried on.I really don't.In fact I was glad/happy about it.At least it made me feel as though I was needed.It reduces my sense of USELESSNESS.[is there such a word?]
But somehow I felt dumb when I gave you useless advices.I guess,Im not really much of a help right?I mean what's with "RELAX GIRL","DONT THINK TOO MUCH ABOUT IT",and "YES,PROMISES WERE MEANT TO BE BROKEN".GAAK.I can't be a love doctor.SERIOUSLY.
Im ending this post with a BIG SORRY TO ELF.GIRL,I apologised for doing such a lousy job in comforting you.IM SORRY.
| 3:20 AM |
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Obviously,Im not in the mood to blog.Since this day have been a very slow and boring day,I dont see the point of blogging when there is nothing to blog about.
Ah,yes.WELCOME HOME MUM AND SIS.They are back to make my life a living hell.Just want to post a quick shout out to my MUM.
*YOU'RE A BIAS AND I JUST LOVE THE WAY YOU FAVOUR MY SIS.
SERIOUSLY.
LOVE ALWAYS
-DEN
*corrected mistake pointed out by NICHOLAS =))
| 5:01 AM |
Saturday, June 23, 2007
With great disappointment I realised that HIS haircut is one of those many version of a typical CHINESE hairstyle.I dont want to be racial prejudice here,but I cant help feeling a great sadness over it, afterall as far as Im concern HIS unlike any other chinese guy I've ever met or known.HIS unique ,period.So, HE gave me a packet of skittles [sweets/candies] during work.The pleasure and happiniess I felt back then couldn't been have hiden even if my life depends on it.I smiled like a dork as I gleefully accepted and pocketed it,I just knew it.Haha.I couldn't even say out a proper THANK YOU.How idiotic was that?
To add on,I've missed HIS call yet again.I believe that today would be the 3rd day HE called me but to no vail.It wasn't on purpose,seriously.I was defiantely looking forward to HIS CALLS.SighsWhile chatting with him on MSN HE said something random.
HE:I've decided,I like you.
HE:=))
HE:takecare
HE:byebye
HE:logged off.
| 7:13 AM |
Thursday, June 21, 2007
I just want to add this up.I found this while browsing through friendster.I think for my case this is a good advice.Its my horoscope for the day=)) by the way Im VIRGOThe Bottom Line
Retail therapy isn't effective. Avoid the mall. Impulse buys will only be regretted.
In Detail
Retail therapy is not a very effective way of dealing with problems right now -- so avoid the mall and do not get out that plastic! Any impulse buys you make today might provide a temporary relief of your symptoms, but they definitely won't do anything to cure the underlying cause. Save your money for another day and, instead, take a walk, visit a friend or do something else that costs nothing. You'll get much more value of out
| 9:07 PM |
Im just going to make this post short and sweet as I dont have much time left before I go out for lunch.Today,I'll finally get a taste of New York New York.YAY.Excitement and anticipation filled me from the crown of my head to the very tip of my toes.Haha.Okey,weird way to describe but you guys get it right?=))Call me a digbrat or a hoe but I was disappointed when I found outthat my mum and sister will be back this sunday.My shocked was apparent and tranparent for my dad to notice,with a kind and gentle smile he gave my shoulder a light pat as if to reassure me that everything will be okey.Haiz..oh wells..It wasn't even 2 weeks.It was just 10 days and to think I got all that excited for a pathetic 10 days.What a bummer..
I know that all my post were not really well written and well thought out.Whenever I read back,I feel deleting everything off.My writing skills are so shameful lah.Compare it with others and you'll see.So I've decided that after this post onwards I'll try write a little better than I usually do.Not only will it improve my English,it will also boost my self confident [in terms of blogging]See,Im multi-tasking here just like Haikal.Oh,and speaking of Haikal...
MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE=DD
| 8:29 PM |
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
So,I've finally done up my template.It was just a random idea since Im dead bored.Im not really satisfied with it but my computer is running low in terms of space in memory.Therefore I cant use photoshop for the time being.The word PROGRESSING will be there until I have a)until I have time to sit down and edit.
b)until I fix my computer and delete some files for for extra memory.
c)until the right mood strike me
d)all of the above.
Ans: D
| 10:28 PM |
Maths Camp is officially over.YAY!The two days,14 hours camp had finally ended.I couldn't believe I managed to survive thru it all.I believe those 14hours were the longest time in my life I ever did maths.Oh gosh Although Im really Ecstatic that its finally over,I got to admit that the past two days have been really fruitful for me [ in terms of maths,of course]Ah,yes.I definately wanted to thank my mentor ;JIN HAO.His such a great guy lah.He was so patient as well as helpful with me.I hope we can do maths together again.YEAH.Girls,girls,girls.You must trust my statement on this one.I just trimmed my brows today with BRENDA and it hurts like hell.The eyebrow session today was my first time ever.I believe that it would probably be my last.Haha.The pain was unexpected on my part as I thought it was just shaving but nooooooooo,she have to pluck it out too.DAMN.To add on,it cost 12 bucks. X((
The MR BEAN ICE-CREAM AFTER THE SESSION CHEERED ME UP A LITTLE THOUGH.
I LOVE SOYA BEAN AND I CANT/WONT DENY.HAHA
Well..Im off for a long soak in the tub.I just finished jogging and I smelled of sweat in other words,I stink.
| 5:09 AM |
Saturday, June 16, 2007
1. Look to your left with your eyes looking down.
Signify :LAME
2. Roll your eyes.
Signify:WHATEVER
3. Points middle finger.
Signify: OH.GOT IT.
Haha.Obviously I've been crapping today.I went off from work about an hour earlier than I usually do.This was because there was just NO CROWD.I dont see the point of staying in when ROBINSON is practically half empty [excluding the staffs,of course]Work just seems so draggy now a days.Iam so not looking forward to tomorrow when I have to go back to that dreaded place and stand for another 5 hours.I just hope that the crowd tomorrow will be much bigger than today.
So, after work I met up with HAZ at J8.We walked around before we finally settled down at MAC.YAZRIN was working today.I feel really happy when I saw him.It has been a long time since we last talked and I really do miss my PROFESSOR YAN.
I've finished up another piece of my ENGLISH homework.So far,I've done 4.ONLY.Haha.Done it while I was in MAC with HAZ.Hmm,but Im really going to start working hard from today onwards.I'll do my work and extra revisions.YES I WILL.If Im going to fail my O's I certainly Am not failing it without giving all that I got.In fact Im going to study right after I post this.YEAH. =))
NOTE:KL IS SICK! =((.
Hope he'll get better soon aye?
At the mean time.I wont be seeing him at work.
He got 4 days of MC.
DAMN.
| 7:18 AM |
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Dont know when I'll be back again
Haha,okey.I begun my post with this old song although Im not too sure if most of the present generation have heard of it.I cant tell you the title because I dont know it myself.SORRY.Anyway what does it signify?Well..my mum and my sis have finally left Singapore!Gosh,
I had 4hour and 30 mins of sleep yesterday night.I dont know why but I've been so restless this past few nights.HMM.Despite that,I managed to get through each day full of energy.Yes.I even managed to finish up another piece of my english homework today.Three homework done and a billion more to go.Haha.
Early in the morning I went to the airport by cab.Of course,I was with my family.We had breakfast at BURGER KING afterwhich I did a little Chocolate shopping at Terminal two.This chocolate shop was like having an offer with CADBURY Chocolates.Buy 3 for $4.30 each and get 1 free.I just couldn't resist the offer!And the flavours are not those type which you can just buy from any supermarket/mini-mart.They're unique and different.BTW the CHOCOLATES weren't for me.They were for my cousin back at PHILIPPINES but I did keep one for myself.Haha.
So after both my mum and my sis checked in.My dad and I went to Toa Payo for a little visit to his company doctor.His sick okey,I guess he cant live without my mum.AWW.Haha.Then we went for lunch,I finally ate laksa,I just couldn't wait for FIZZ treatment lah.We then walked around Toa Payo and ended up shopping at POPULAR BOOKSTORE.Haha.SEE!LIKE FATHER LIKE DAUGHTER =)).He bought for me study guide books for both English and Maths.Not forgetting sationaries to fill up my huge empty pencil box.
I bet the next two week will be a blast!
IAM ONE HAPPY KID. =DD
Oh and Im on my way to become canberra's next
| 6:56 AM |
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
I feel like a damn fool.Im so disappointed with myself.Yesyes!I HATE DEN!DEN SUCKS!.
Yesterdays movie date with KL turned out to be a disaster!I was so nervous that I was practically mute.DAMN.Whenever he asked questions I would just give him a short yes or no answers.HAIZ.I have no idea why I was so fucking nervous.LIKE SERIOUSLY.X((
HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ.
Talking about it brings forth memories of the times when heavy silence hung in the air between us.Which happened more frequently than I could have wish for.=((.IM DEPRESS IM SAD IM SO FUCKING ANGRY WITH MYSELF.UGRH!
Anyway I have to give him some credits too.He was a true gentleman =)).He paid for everything [movie tickets,popcorn and dinner]I offered to pay for the popcorn but he brushed me off.I wanted to treat him for dinner but he said no.-_-"
To add on,he didnt give up on me.Eventhough I was RIGID he still tried his best until the very end to get me to relax.AWW.And and he sent me home despite the fact that it was already late and he live at jurong east.He was just the most thoughtful guy ever lah.
| 1:33 AM |
Monday, June 11, 2007
Right now,Im so fucking depress.I spent $100 ++ on shopping yesterday.Haiz.Excluding my food expenses which I wager total up to about $20.DAMN.My bank account have a pathetic $72 inside.I wonder how I can survived with that amount until the end of the month?I just cant wait till I get my pay but from now until that joyful day I have to control my expenditure.YES!SERIOUSLY.SECRET RECIPE was a total disappointment.There was nothing so "secret" about it.In fact,everything sums up to be in the range of "ordinary".The ice blended chocolate drink which I ordered tasted like its nothing special.I don't want to sound so boastful but I think anyone can make a better version of that drink [especially DEN] HAHA.Oh.and the brownies Haz ordered was NOT mouth watering.COFFEEBEAN BROWNIES tastes better and much more larger in size.Overall,eating at SECRET RECIPE was my biggest regret yesterday and it was just a waste of money.So heres a good advice for everyone:NEVER EAT THERE!
Nah.I was just bored and I got nothing better to do.
HOPE YOU'LL GET WELL SOON BABEH!
| 10:45 PM |
Saturday, June 9, 2007
Gosh Im so tired.I stood for 9 hour plus today.My poor feet are aching like hell.Haha.Work was really enojoyable today.I found out alot of rumours from the other staff.Haha.Okey,okey,Den is a very KEPO girl.She cant help it lah.Besides its not like I coaxed the thing out of her mouth.The words just came out by itself.Haha.IAM NOT TO BLAME.=))
Anyway every now and then I find myself glancing towards the direction where the elevator is.I was hoping to see him.DAMN.What the fuck is wrong with me?And when he finally walked up.I got so excited and happy that I couldn't have stop the smile that spread across my fucking face.SHIT.
| 6:38 AM |
Friday, June 8, 2007
For the whole afternoon i was thinking "To blog or not to blog" and here Iam finally decided to blog.Haha.Im not really in the mood to blog so im just going to make this entry short and sweet aye?Okey,today i learned a new word during English lessons.I really enjoyed English periods now a day although sometimes topic discussions are way out of hand.But it was always a blast now that she's back mind you.Haha.
Ah yes the new word is FORNICATION in Oxford Dictionary it meant having sexual intercourse with someone one is not married to.However in Mrs Lee's dictionary it meant a human being having intercourse with an animal.Haha,OMG.It was so hilarious okey.I just cant keep that out of my mind.My vocabulary is expanding with every lessons I had with her.I hope that i could A's my ENGLISH.Yeah,keep dreaming DEN.
Anyway I went jogging with my dad and my stomach hurts like hell.For whatever reason?Im not really sure so we ended up half running half walking.Haiz.Im not losing fats here. =((.Im depressed.
| 6:04 AM |
Monday, June 4, 2007
Today was a horrible day for me.No its not about the english perlim oral in the morning.Although I do wonder if i did that great.Mrs George kept stopping me half way thru the picture discussion as well as the conversation.She kept saying "okey lets move on."Hmmm,i wonder if she was rushing afterall she have to test the whole sec 4 express.Haha.What's so bad about today? IT'S MY DAD!He sang the whole afternoon away.When i said sang i meant literaly.He was "karaoke-ing"[okey,im not sure if such a word existed but you know what i mean right?]
URGH!Thanks to him i was unable to study.I mean who could?He was so noisy!His voice was so loud.Haha.It's no wonder it rained.Yes people,BLAME HIM. =))
Anyway I was reading my dad's cook book about fried rice and I have the sudden feeling to cook.Haha.It was so RANDOM,like out of the blue.So here Iam blogging while waiting for the meat to soften up.Whether it'll be a success or not nobody can tell the outcome yet.So i'll announce my failure/success on tomorrows post.Haha =))
[my blog song]
Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly
I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
And ill come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see
And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me
I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone
And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still
And what you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will
Ooo's
And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
| 3:13 AM |
Friday, June 1, 2007
Fine.Im going to blog eventhough i dont feel like it.Haha.Don't want this blog to rot and die.I have enough losses to mourn for.So finally Mrs Lee came back to teach us english.Her hair is so nice.It suits her a whole lot better than her past hair cut.It make her look more womanly as it soften her features.Haha.She said alot of funny stuffs.Like photocoying her preventic jokes for us cause the computer have some errors.Therefore we were unable to view the jokes during the class hour.
1/4 of 4E1 didn't attend the lessons today.For what reasons?I have no idea.When i reached school MR D. welcomed me with a morning dose of unpleasanties. DAMN.Its holidays already and he still had not had enough of nagging during the school days.
Anyway when i reached home.I slept.I ate.I slept again.Woke up and use the computer until now.So there you go.That was how i basicly spent my day =DD.I know im a pig;Im not denying it.Haha